A Conversation

This week a friend of mine lost her baby boy. He was born on December 1, 2012 with a complicated combination of congenital heart defects. What a strong little boy he was and what an amazing family he was born into. When I heard the news my body froze up. I was in shock. My heart felt like it had broken and I had never even met this little baby boy. My heart broke for my friend and her family. As a mother, I cannot even imagine what she is going through. My heart aches for her. I have been thinking a lot about her and cannot even comprehend losing a child. I have held my children a little tighter this week that is for sure.

As I was heading to Wal-Mart to pick up a few things for Ty’s preschool I had a conversation with Tyson. I don’t remember exactly what was said but the conversation went something like this.

(I had just gotten off the phone with one of my friends giving her information about the funeral for this baby)

T: Who were you talking to?

Me: Katie

T: What did she say?

Me: I was just telling her about the funeral for Logan’s baby brother.

T: What’s a funeral?

Me: It is an event that we go to when someone dies.

T: Where is Logan’s baby brother going to go?

Me: His spirit is now with Heavenly Father and his body is going to be buried in the ground in a casket or a really nice comfy box. His body stays on the earth buried in the ground in a casket and his spirit goes to be with our Heavenly Father up in Heaven.

T: Where is heaven and how does the baby’s spirit get to Heavenly Father? Did Heavenly Father carry him to heaven?

Me (crying): Yes, I think maybe heavenly father did carry him to heaven.

T: Heavenly Father has a plan.

Me (crying some more): You’re right Ty. Heavenly Father does have a plan.  It is the plan of salvation or happiness. If we make good choices when we are on earth, when we die (which will be a long time from now) we will get to live with our Heavenly Father again. Isn’t that so cool?

T: Yes, I want to live with Heavenly Father again.

Me: Someday!

I have been thinking a lot about this conversation this week and a couple of things hit me really hard. One is how grateful I am for the gospel in my life. I am so grateful Tyson is learning and taking something away from primary. I always wonder if he understand and learns anything and what he grasps from church. This conversation with him tells me that he does pay attention even though it is sometimes hard to tell and he is learning. Two is how grateful I am that I know that Heavenly Father has a plan. And that if we are obedient and endure to the end we will get to live with Heavenly Father and Jesus again.